Thanks so much for commenting! I haven't gotten round to friending you back; but it's on the way.

So do you find the "coldness" (what an awful word) affects your life in adverse ways? Or have you learned it's part of your personality, and that you're engaged enough when it matters?

Part of me feeling better about this whole "automaton" thing was realizing that I just wanted different things than other people; I stopped compromising in order to have friends. That sounds bad, but what it really means is I realized I didn't need many people in my life, just ones who wanted the same things as me. So I stopped, say, "going out" or, I don't know, hanging with people who *only* wanted to see bad movies.

I don't know if I'm describing this well.