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crisis of confidence
Okay, maybe not a crisis.
I haven't been writing at all, though. And while I know that part of this is laziness/distraction/reluctance on some psychological level, some of it is that when I sit down, nothing happens. I was upset over not working on my book, and decided that it would be beneficial for me to start writing something every day. What better than one of those pesky WIPs, hmm? At least I'd regain some confidence.
Well, one of them I'm stuck on because I can't figure out how the mystery's solved, one of them I'm stuck on because I suddenly don't feel equipped to write Lawrence despite telling myself I'm writing movie!Lawrence and not RPF, one of them is long and intimidating to start hacking into, and the other two just... well, I have no idea where they're going. Paltry excuses, maybe, but I miss the days when I felt the passion for the story I was writing welling up within me so that I couldn't think of anything else. It was a sort of lust. It did not, perhaps, result in such good writing, but it was writing. And now I feel stagnant, never evolving.
Writer's block is nothing original, sure. But I feel like there must be something I'm missing, some key that will unlock at least a trickle. I do still role play (the online forum kind, for those of you not involved), and that may take up some of my writing energy (though I rarely do it when I could be writing instead), but then again, at least it's writing. Is it swallowing impulse/ambition, or keeping me at least a little in practice?
Maybe I should forget fic for now, and go back to trying to write the book, even if the going is slow.
I haven't been writing at all, though. And while I know that part of this is laziness/distraction/reluctance on some psychological level, some of it is that when I sit down, nothing happens. I was upset over not working on my book, and decided that it would be beneficial for me to start writing something every day. What better than one of those pesky WIPs, hmm? At least I'd regain some confidence.
Well, one of them I'm stuck on because I can't figure out how the mystery's solved, one of them I'm stuck on because I suddenly don't feel equipped to write Lawrence despite telling myself I'm writing movie!Lawrence and not RPF, one of them is long and intimidating to start hacking into, and the other two just... well, I have no idea where they're going. Paltry excuses, maybe, but I miss the days when I felt the passion for the story I was writing welling up within me so that I couldn't think of anything else. It was a sort of lust. It did not, perhaps, result in such good writing, but it was writing. And now I feel stagnant, never evolving.
Writer's block is nothing original, sure. But I feel like there must be something I'm missing, some key that will unlock at least a trickle. I do still role play (the online forum kind, for those of you not involved), and that may take up some of my writing energy (though I rarely do it when I could be writing instead), but then again, at least it's writing. Is it swallowing impulse/ambition, or keeping me at least a little in practice?
Maybe I should forget fic for now, and go back to trying to write the book, even if the going is slow.